Waking up next to you

This is the best part of the day everyday. Waking up next to you.This is also the best part of the end of the day everyday, lying next to you. 

The last 6 months have passed by in a whirlwind. In the beginning, it used to be awkward, weird, so surreal waking up next to you. Now, I feel so blessed that every time I open my eyes and you are the first thing that I see. Real blessed. Even when the night comes, when darkness falls, you are just next to me, being my light just as God is light in our marriage.

As a little girl, I never pictured myself getting into a marriage. I would only played acting as a bride with neighbour using blanket as our wedding gown. Never really understood what or how a marriage life would be like. However, when we started our courtship, when I began day dreaming of marrying to you, it became a very real high chance and I was very excited.

During our pre-marital counselling, we went through exactly what it meant to have a Christian marriage. I was to follow you - fearlessly, lovingly and devotedly all because God is our leader in our marriage. As we entered into our marriage life, I soon realised how difficult it was for me as I struggled to let you lead me, especially in this modern era. I have fought and argued with you about certain decisions you've made. I have learnt that I need to be submissive to you because that's what God has commanded from the beginning.

You always have our family's best interest at heart and have looked to God for guidance. You have been so patient and loving me through all of it. Thank you for continuing leading and never giving up on me since the beginning. With God as our center, we will have all the strength to go through any struggles together. I love you more, tubby.