Sad to leave the snuggles behind

So hard to believe, but this was the last leap of her infant months! She will be 1 year old shortly and becomes a toddler. The time is flying by; the baby times are dwindling quickly. It is amazing and emotional all at the same time. So glad to see her growing up, so sad to leave the snuggles behind.

Baby's 7 months update

I was going to do monthly baby update for the first 6 months (or at least I tried) and then wait till a year. I was thinking that her development might slow down a little bit after 6 months but this month, she's literally been doing so much stuffs that I would like to update about it.

World Breastfeeding Week

Looking at her face today while breastfeeding, seeing her so dependent on me to fulfil her physical and emotional needs even after carrying her for 40 weeks and going through the arduous experience of labour and childbirth, I was overwhelmed at how amazing and powerful the female body is with its ability to grow, to sustain and to nurture life.

Introduction to solid food - Baby-led-weaning way

Her trying beetroot for the first time

We have started Rainbow on solid when she turned 6 months. We are doing it the baby-led-weaning (BLW) way.

Happy Father's Day

I try to make it a point to say "thank you" every day, for all the things you do to help take care of me and Rainbow. However, "thank you" hardly seems like enough sometimes...

Baby's 5 months update

Letting go of her

Bear with me. Tonight's post is an emotional one.

Happy Mother's day

This is my FIRST mother's day.

So surreal!

I am now a mother!

How did that happen???

As a new mum in the first month

Long overdue post.

The first month with Rainbow were full of ups and downs really even though many said that confinement was like honeymoon. I personally do not think so. It was intense and I am glad that it was over and I remember it as blur. Good thing, I wrote some of my thoughts down and my notes have given me some clearer picture of what those days and nights were like.

Becoming a mother, a mistake???

I used to share about how lonely motherhood is. It’s strange to feel alone when you are constantly attached to another human being (she's just like my shadow) but it truly is a lonely experience. No one told me how lonely motherhood can be. I felt so isolated in those first few months that I found myself wondering if I had made a mistake by becoming a mother. I love my baby, but I didn't love my new life with new role.

Now, after 4 months, motherhood became much less lonely over time. I have became more confident taking care of my baby. I could even bring my baby out on my own without the man and reconnect with my friends. As my baby became older, she became more responsive, making motherhood so much more fulfilling and less lonely. She is the greatest gift that God put into my life. She helped me gain a lot of confidence being a mother. I'm also grateful for the support from the man and family.

Yes, I still feel lonely at times but seeing her grow so fast each day, I just want to embrace every moments while she still allow me to. When I get lonely, I will remember why I call her rainbow. Becoming your mother is not a mistake at all.

Motherhood can be so lonely

As much as I love being a mother, I didn't expect motherhood to be so lonely. I know I shouldn't be because it's part of the parenthood package. I know that as they say, this too shall pass, but it can be hard to remember that when it's just me and my baby girl again and again and again, day after day after day. 

Baby's 3.5 months update

Rainbow is currently 3.5 months. She has become so chubby, roughly at 7kg now. She's updated to wearing 3-6 months old clothes. She has really chunky thigh, double chin, I would describe it as baby fat. She still has her 2 big eyes. Everyone still commend on how big and lovely those eyes are. Overall, she is really well.  She's definitely more awake and more aware of the surrounding now and she needs a lot of stimulation. She loves laying on the bed and looking up and about. During breastfeeding, she will feed for few minutes then look around for few minutes then back again. I am still watching silent movie while breastfeeding because she gets distracted with sound!

Labour and delivery story

Hi everyone! Wow, this blog has been in a hiatus since last year! and I can't believe how time has passed so quickly! 3.5 months post partum! My baby girl is 3.5 months old.