Happy Father's Day

I try to make it a point to say "thank you" every day, for all the things you do to help take care of me and Rainbow. However, "thank you" hardly seems like enough sometimes...

Letting go of her

Bear with me. Tonight's post is an emotional one.

Happy Mother's day

This is my FIRST mother's day.

So surreal!

I am now a mother!

How did that happen???

As a new mum in the first month

Long overdue post.

The first month with Rainbow were full of ups and downs really even though many said that confinement was like honeymoon. I personally do not think so. It was intense and I am glad that it was over and I remember it as blur. Good thing, I wrote some of my thoughts down and my notes have given me some clearer picture of what those days and nights were like.

Becoming a mother, a mistake???

I used to share about how lonely motherhood is. It’s strange to feel alone when you are constantly attached to another human being (she's just like my shadow) but it truly is a lonely experience. No one told me how lonely motherhood can be. I felt so isolated in those first few months that I found myself wondering if I had made a mistake by becoming a mother. I love my baby, but I didn't love my new life with new role.

Now, after 4 months, motherhood became much less lonely over time. I have became more confident taking care of my baby. I could even bring my baby out on my own without the man and reconnect with my friends. As my baby became older, she became more responsive, making motherhood so much more fulfilling and less lonely. She is the greatest gift that God put into my life. She helped me gain a lot of confidence being a mother. I'm also grateful for the support from the man and family.

Yes, I still feel lonely at times but seeing her grow so fast each day, I just want to embrace every moments while she still allow me to. When I get lonely, I will remember why I call her rainbow. Becoming your mother is not a mistake at all.

Motherhood can be so lonely

As much as I love being a mother, I didn't expect motherhood to be so lonely. I know I shouldn't be because it's part of the parenthood package. I know that as they say, this too shall pass, but it can be hard to remember that when it's just me and my baby girl again and again and again, day after day after day.